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a/n: drabbles are almost over ;( ! here’s a lengthy read.
set in april 08′ | drabble: destructive | word count: 3,600+
“You’ve read it though, right? She says relationships make her insecure when it’s not a serious thing,” Barry places the magazine with Robyn’s face on the cover over my eyes as I roll them and shake my head.
“She says she has something just physical going on and that’s about the only way things make sense.” Barry continues to read, and I exhale, sitting up and stopping.
“What the fuck is that supposed to mean?” I groan, partly because it’s hard to call this relationship purely physical when she helps calm me down with words and not just orgasms.
JD sucks his teeth, “You’re just a fuck buddy to her, obviously.”
I go up another set in weight and groan. “Maybe she’s just deflecting her feelings.”
Maybe. We did stuff, and her birthday and Jamaica was fucking amazing, but all the things that we did do, it just delayed the sex. I wouldn’t be surprised if that’s really was all she stuck around for: the sex. We know that’s the backbone of this relationship, and I think that I should be worried about that.
I think I want something more out of her than just amazing sex and good chemistry, once we get underneath the layers of our mingling tempers, attitudes, and other priorities. I just don’t know if I’m fully ready to give up on everything else.
“She’s shady.” Helen grumbles from across the room, on the treadmill. I shake my head.
“Yeah she is, because when a female puts it like that, it’s kinda fucked up. Insecurities ain’t shit to be played with,” Maya murmured as I stared back at my phone and then holstered myself back down to the weights.
“Maybe ya’ll should just get serious…” She hints, and I suck my teeth again.
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set in jan’ 08 | drabble: angry | word count: 3,500+
“We’re taking you to the airport and I’ll be waiting on you in Jamaica like we talked about, babe…” Robyn smiled at me as I kept my hand locked in hers and moved towards the SUV.
A couple of days had passed since NYE ’08, and the feelings I had about this year started off very interestingly. Well, for starters, after coming to a point in which being around each other felt no longer forced, I stopped denying my feelings about Robyn that seemed to grow after Vegas.
She caved totally too, or at least got off of the whole business related aspect of it all. She genuinely wanted to be with me, and I was still figuring out how to go about accepting it, knowing how her attitudes clashed with my temperance.
It wasn’t a surprise, and it worked in our favor, like Tina had stated, but it was still being denied all over, and slowly ironed out. She was on tour with me for a few dates, and I liked our chemistry a lot to extend it off the stage.
It pleased Tina enough to give me space and pull her rein in on Maya, which was definitely necessary. I was over her the first time she stepped up on me, trying to pry into my personal relationships, which wasn’t an aspect of her just doing her job as a pr agent, but whatever.
We were about as cordial as we could be, at least to each other anyway, and it felt like a small victory. We were together, everyone accepted it, and Kacie gave me space. We were taking this break seriously, with the exception of her hanging out during the UCP dates, but not on the same level as the first tour.
Bailey’s presence was strong in the tour dates she did roll through for, even though they parted at night. It was annoying as hell, but it made my distance from her worth it. It eased temptation too, but in between sets, I made sure to find her.
I had to make things comfortable for the dates she told me that she could make, so Robyn’s hologram eased any drama during those few sets. I also had to make sure she would hang around long enough to spend time with me alone before we kept going.
Bailey didn’t like that, and caught on quick, but he knew the arrangement, which apparently had gotten updated to ‘in an open relationship with’ on Facebook, according to Barry’s view of her profile.
In the end though, I dragged her through VIP, backstage, dressing rooms, put her in suites or on the side stage until she got aggravated by the treatment and I let her go. I don’t think she’d want to fuck with me now though.
Especially not after seeing the picture I uploaded to MySpace earlier.
She knows us well to know that my latest tattoo matches Robyn’s, despite the fact that me and Kacie already share two matching tattoos ourselves, it’s still a fucking statement that makes me feel weird about flaunting.
I’m all for new developments, a new relationship, but fuck…
…I miss her, and I’m not sure if my attempt to get us to spend time together will work, considering that this ‘relationship’ is the only thing she said would truly make her give me space.
I’m a bit curious about how the next weeks will pan out, especially with Robyn taking another leave, this time to shoot a video, and Kacie deciding to venture out for the tour ending in a few days.
I guess I’ll have to just wait and see.
“I’m so tired of these lights, they’re about to give me a migraine…” Robyn complained as I kept my eyes out the window as the paparazzi caught up with us, targeting her especially seeing as how she wore my jacket.
We don’t talk about us. We don’t put a label on it because it’s been a shifting progression, and there’s not really much to talk about. We fall head first into recording together and writing, even if none of it will ever see the light of day, I like the experience.
We just mesh, you know? I can escape from my celebrity problems with her by my side, even though everyone has something to say about it. We really complement each other’s celebrity side.
I like it.
“Put your head on my shoulder.” I lowly murmur and she does, and rubs her eyes as we drive deeper into darker streets and away from the bright city lights.
My mind wanders with the quietness of the backseat, save for the occasional phone ringing here and there. Barry’s not around this time – Mercedes gave birth to a son, and I don’t know when he’ll find his way back out with me – so I don’t really have anyone to really talk to.
Without even trying to, I wonder exactly how long she will be gone for this time. I’m afraid of the answer, afraid to know that she will be gone for weeks, leaving me alone to deal with everything; leaving me alone with my thoughts.
I could make a phone call, but not with Robyn pressed up against me. I have enough respect between them for that not happening twice in a lifetime.
So I just sit, and watch the city roll by outside the window. Continue reading
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set in september ’07 | drabble: special | word count: 3,100+
I wasn’t going to drop from this natural high any time soon, and after being rushed off of the table and backstage, I knew something had changed. The performance was still getting deafening shrieks and screams in response of just how well executed the whole thing turned out to be, and with Robyn’s appearance, it definitely changed the whole spectrum in terms of just seeing her up there.
I didn’t think it would turn out like it did. My initial thoughts were focused purely on scandalous intentions, but actually having her up there, despite everything; it was different than anything I could ever imagine. Our chemistry solidified something between us for the first time, and everyone saw it in action.
It all worked out for the best, which scared me. The rush that I was getting while backstage had me on a trip that wasn’t going to end, and to be honest, I didn’t want it to. I was a bit afraid of what would come after this, give our history, but I was willing to take a chance, possibly…
It was all fresh and seriously appealing, and definitely something I’d be willing to do again. I didn’t think it would feel as good as it did, or work out like that at all. We meshed. We played off of each other well, and most importantly, everyone was all over it.
Maybe I doubted Tina’s decisions, but her intentions could be bad…I wasn’t sure. Both possibilities make me sick inside, but they’re better than the alternative.
“Robyn, c’mere, oh my god…” I wiped my face with a towel and she grabbed me, pressing her body against my chest.
I glance at her from the top of her head and down to her feet, falling for her shimmery thighs and long legs, and toying with the fedora on her head. Her eyes run the length of me, taking inventory, staring at my eyes and the smile that won’t get off of my face.
“You didn’t think it’d do that good, huh?” She questioned, briskly running her hands up and down my arms.
I shook my head no and looked at her, really looked at her, and saw just how excited she was. It was still obvious all over her face, that same post-performance rush, knocking me back a bit to see that she had the same expression as I did.
We got stopped for photos, caught in mid conversation, trying to accept this event that just changed everything between us. Then, she was being summoned, and I was catching my breath, but not before leaving her with one final request.
“Come up to my room later, alright?” She nodded, and I smiled.
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a/n: i know it’s been a whileeeeee. so, yeah. my bad. here’s an apology in the form of part 1 of the best fucking night, ever.
set in september ’07 | drabble: confident | word count: 2,200+
“’Nina, c’mon, please?” It’s like hours before we’re supposed to be prepared to get dressed and go through whatever we need to before walking the carpet.
Instead of being with Rashida and the rest of the stylists, Janina ran into Kacie after we left an event with Kanye West and his fiancée, but won’t tell me where she is now. I know JD and Maryss are with her, so maybe it’s a dance off I’ve been hearing about?
I caught her in the hallway, and asked her again the second Brandon held his hands up in order to walk away from us. He glanced at me only slightly, and I nodded my head at him. I wasn’t going to do anything to her, I just needed an answer.
“Tina can have my ass for this, Chris. I haven’t seen her since yesterday though, have you questioned anyone else or…” Her eyes ballooned as she followed me back into the suite, and passed up the throngs of people who eyed me, wondering what brought on my return.
“Forget it. I’ll find her myself. Fuck, ‘Nina, I just…I thought you would help me.” I frowned and just stopped talking altogether as I spotted Maryss’ head, and shortly after, caught JD dancing with some of Britney’s dancers to the latest Justin and 50 Cent song.
I saw Ne-Yo coming my way and I inwardly cursed as I attempted to duck out of his path towards me. I wasn’t in a bonding mood, nor was I in the mood for questions about me and Robyn at the moment. It was bad enough that the rumor spreading around about her performing had caught fire, and I felt pressured to snag her from her seat or whatever, but fuck…
This was my first performance, and I had other things to worry about. Continue reading
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a/n: yikes, i haven’t added since MONDAY. my bad. long and lengthy, and a drabble is coming after this (later!)
30.
I really can’t help myself
I get weak in my knees
When you’re away
I can hardly breathe
It is so amazing
The way you make me feel
I have to stop and think
Is this a dream or is it real
“Stop stalking my timeline, motherfucker.” Kacie murmured as I yanked her hair softly as she passed me by and frowned at the load of clothes she’d gotten from the dryer.
“Wifey c’mere,” I licked my lips as she blushed and shook her head. She wasn’t talking to me after I let the combination of my hormones and her swimming and beach yoga get the best of me.
I don’t think it helped that I had found the first pair of gold fronts that I had gotten summers ago in the middle of her packing to send stuff to our place. I put them on instantly and it made her shiver and maul me, but she won’t admit it. Even while she went to shower the sand off of her, she’s still denying it, but whatever. I’ll take the blame this time.
“I took them out. C’mere, please?” I pulled the gold fronts back out of my mouth and she laughed and ran her fingers down her face.
“You’re always tryna make something pop off,” I watched her inhale sharply and whine as she leaned against the staircase and filled the gap in between my open arms. I slouch so our faces are level, and then kiss her hard, even though she’d been emotional all morning.
“You ain’t even lemme finish swimming, nasty! What if Chan saw?” She thumped me in the chest and I shrugged. My head started to itch and I brought my hand up to scratch it and watched her look at me in digust.
“Ugh, that’s why you still have sand in your hair.” She ran her fingers through my hair as I frowned and bent over, dusting her with the sand that was still in my hair.
“Oh my god, you’re so fucking gross!” She shrieked as she disappeared out of the front door and back into the sunny outside. It smells like salt and her mango shampoo once I follow her out, and wrap my arms around her.
“Don’t run off.” I nuzzle her cheek with my nose and she presses her lips against mines. Sexy, playful, she swipes her tongue across and inside, like she’s tasting me. I moan and she bites down on my lip as she pulls away, and separates our formerly touching lower halves.
“No. You’re getting hard again and baby Kacestopher is making me tired…” She says, and I smile, eyes lazily tracking her mouth as it moves and she murmurs something softly about figuring how to beat the fatigue.
“So, are you gonna tell me what happened for you to stop being all in denial and shit and finally admit that I’ve been right about this since I asked you about it the first time?” I go back to carrying the boxes that we would drop off at the post office to mail back to Cali, much to my dismay.
The sun had come out from its hiding spot within the clouds as soon as we started moving stuff, and I was sweating just barely, but it was enough for Kacie to cringe and dart back inside to throw up. I wasn’t sure if I could get used to this. I had no idea what to expect, but I knew Barry did, and he’d be my official go to man for advice and pointers as soon as I let him know about this.
Luckily though, Barry had decided to come out to Virginia and bring Alex with him just for company’s sake, but I knew what it would probably turn into before he even got out here. We’d be engaged in some couple type shit that would probably, no, most likely, alienate any of my cousins who didn’t have someone they could creep with until I put them out.
Baby talk would have to wait, at least for a minute.
I leaned against the fence as I saw that Kacie had come back outside. She started in my direction with a wet towel on her face and a half-empty bottle of ginger ale that surprisingly landed right into the recycling box at the base of the stairs as she walked down them. I picked the box back up and sat it in the trunk of her car as she rolled her eyes at me and I scoffed at her.
“I think I jinxed you asking about throwing up.” Continue reading
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I was meant for you and you were meant for me, yeah
And I’ll make sure that I’ll be everything you need, yeah
Girl the way we are is how its gonna be
Just as long as your love don’t change
29.
“Not recently. Then.” She doesn’t even have to put a date on it for me to know when then is, and my stomach instantly drops. Kacie gasps in her seat, and her crew beyond her tapers off, leaving her alone in front of the screen.
“It’s fucked up to admit, but I’ve just now gotten hospital reports back since I’ve spent more time than I’ve liked being hospitalized for exhaustion and dehydration… and that kinda just… you know… came out. I had no fucking idea, and it’s my body, you know? like…” Robyn’s rambling in between crying, and her accent slurs and drops when she glances up at us, apologizing.
I still can’t process this. Funny how the past takes up some much headspace when there isn’t a damn thing we can do about it.
“Really? They tell you this shit right now?” Kacie blinks away just as many tears as Robyn does, and my chest starts to hurt even more.
I find myself standing outside of the balcony in her room before she can even reach for her tissues. I need the air. I can’t have a panic attack in front of them.
For a few moments, I contemplate hurtling myself over the edge and running towards the salty water beyond the wood marker fence of the property line, and ignoring everything I’ve just heard.
I hear the doors sliding open and I glance over my shoulder to see Kacie leaning against the door, wiping the corner of her eye and looking at me, trying to adjust to eyes to the high sun.
“I hope you’re really not thinking about jumping.” She teases, voice quiet, curious. I shake my head.
“I know it hurts, but you can’t ignore it. Come back, we’ll get through this now and end it.” I’m not really sure how to respond, not sure how to tell her that I couldn’t sit in there for another minute no matter how hard I tried, so I just shrug my shoulders.
She backs off, hand clutching her side and eyes narrowing on me. The fresh air has calmed my rapid breathing and I think that I have finally composed myself enough that I’m not going to break. I can tell that she is more than a little frustrated, and a bit angry, and I’m not sure how to handle everything that is inside of her while still trying to help myself.
“I just needed a minute,” I whisper as she sits down on the ground beside me, “I just needed to breathe.”
“Breathe in…” Kacie instructs, small hand pressing against my chest like a guide as I do.
I’m overcome with instant relief; it’s like pulling my hands from the snow and submerging them in hot water. It prickles through my body, warming me from the inside out. I hold it, and she locks eyes with me, doing so herself.
“Breathe out.” She insists on a whisper as I do, calm enough to stare out at the surf and stop clenching my jaw. She places her hand in mines and sighs, and bends to kiss my lips.
“C’mon.” She pressed my hand into her stomach, hovering over little sunflower seed baby, and I sigh, thankful, but still hurt.
Robyn’s still on the screen, waiting, patient. Her hair is pulled up and her face is clear of makeup and tears. Her eyes, they slay me with sadness. I wonder if she sleeps.
Now, she just looks sad. Continue reading
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a/n: i think the drabbles are gonna come back after this, i’m impatient lol. thanks for all the comments and views you guys! <333
Yes, of course
I remember, how could I forget?
How you feel?
And though you were my first time
A new feel
It won’t ever get old, not in my soul
Not in my spirit, keep it alive
We’ll go down this road
‘Til it turns from color to black and white
28.
Isolating myself from everyone in an attempt to ignore the bigger picture that the media is trying to force me into explaining isn’t hard to do anymore.
It’s almost too easy, to a fault. Initially, my attempts to go back home to run from whatever news or drama I didn’t want to hear was something like an all-out affair. Friends and family surrounded me and did whatever they needed to in order to keep me grounded and down to earth, reminding me of where’d I started out and where I’d always have people who could keep me calm and sane when being a celebrity was too much.
This situation is different though.
For a while, on many occasions, my low points were filled with these situations in which all I needed by my side was Kacie. One time, I’d even gotten her to spend the entire month with me. I think that’s when I realized I loved her, and it was the scariest feeling in the world. Robyn hated that shit, but I was trying to escape pressure of the extremely popular relationship we were in, and how high profile it had become.
I couldn’t move without and it being broadcasted everywhere, and I hated it. I just wanted to be with her, but even that had shaped up to be something that had gotten lost in translation, pitting her as the power wielding force in the relationship, and me as the one who benefitted the most from her celebrity status, which was bigger than mines.
When I got fed up enough, running home to take my mind off of how hectic things had become was easy to do. Getting Kacie to spend such a large amount of time with me was easier than I imagined, but by that time, we’d already started having a sexual relationship and honestly, in retrospect I can see how it made things more complicated for the three of us.
The moment I got too used to her, especially when we stopped denying the fact that we wanted every part of each other, I knew I had created this fork in the road path in terms of how my future would go. I knew a choice needed to be made, and either I could continue down Robyn’s path and cement this young prince and princess of R&B celebrity couple position, or travel down Kacie’s path and hold on to the idea of practicality and whatever shreds of normality I could.
I don’t know how I made it work to this day. On occasion I ended up down roads I wasn’t supposed to, but in the end I found my way back to what was comfortable. Despite everything though, I’m happy with where I am now. I’m very happy, after all of the shit I’ve put her through to get to what I wanted out of her and whatever could become of us as a whole.
It doesn’t take long for this tale of a snapped ex, several brushes with death, and the realization that one’s happiness can trigger someone to do fucked up things when motivated by jealousy can happen to anyone to get around. It’s being covered and formed by basically every outlet there is, and I’m satisfied with how Morgan spun the story and kept the hype up as far as what I’d do in order to keep Kacie.
I don’t how know she does it, but I know a major adjustment in my team will happen soon. Morgan can never be replaced now, especially not when she’s capable of doing all of this for not only me, but us. Maya would have never been able to strategically keep this working in my favor. Morgan is working wonders for me in terms of my impending reinvention as a more mature man, which is going to be hard to convince the media that I’m capable of presenting myself as such, but I have to.
She’s fucking amazing, and I don’t call to hesitate to let her know it. She’s defused rumor after rumor, and while placing the engagement into the mix as a slowly dawned upon realization with all of the imagery before to support it, she also sets the stage towards the acceptance of our engagement status.
It used to be easy to run away from my problems. Sometimes, like a horror movie, the ghosts come back to haunt me. In this instance, it was more like a chase. There were too many things I couldn’t ignore or repress, but I knew this engagement symbolized more than just dedication, expectations, and being certain that I wanted more out of life. It ultimately symbolized my understanding that it takes true love to triumph over all of it to get through things. Continue reading
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a/n: i am so not responsible for the heavy angst and the what the fuck moments in this chapter. and, quite possibly, there might be tears, sooo….. there’s a warning.
I could corrupt you
In a heartbeat
You think you’re so special
Think you’re so sweet
22.
“Hey Chris, this is Daz. Um, would you mind coming to my place to pick up Kacie? Normally she’d just call a cab but … listen, she passed out earlier and then her patch beeped and she’s okay now, but… yeah. I just need someone to come and get her. Call me when you’re on your way, please.”
I was drumming my fingertips against the dashboard as I sighed, wondering how long it would take for her to come down and talk to me about whatever the fuck was going on.
I think I’ve replayed this voicemail about seventeen times, wondering how long it would take for someone to explain to me what the hell was really going on. I think this is the third time in the last few days I’ve had to sit around with her, not really knowing exactly what’s going on.
Okay, she’s not sick but something is wrong with her, and it’s scaring me. It reminds me of how I found out about her heart condition to an extent, and my head rests against the dashboard at the thought of losing her. Why now? What the fuck did I do to deserve this?
When the door opens and she folds her arms across her chest and stares straight ahead, I don’t press her to tell me anything.
“I didn’t pass out. Daz is just overreacting like always.” She licked her lip and adjusted in the seat.
“Something happened,” I stated as I felt her eyes on me, and I sighed. “What happened?”
“You know how I get when I get too excited. We were talking about the Pepsi thing and I just…you know, felt lightheaded. And I guess, my heart started beating too fast and my ICD confused it with heart failure. Do you think I’m gonna do this shit at the alter? I almost did it back in March when I was on stage…” She frowned, and narrowed her gaze out of the window.
“So…you’re okay.” I glanced at her and she nodded, and sat back in her seat.
“I might go back to check, but yeah. Don’t worry.” She reassured me as I attempted to wade out of the traffic flow and get us back home.
“Well, even if you did or if you didn’t, it couldn’t have been as scary as when you did that in front of me for the first time. But we haven’t had to worry about this since… what, two thousand seven?” My eyebrow rose as she looked over at me, and nodded.
“Only you can make me feel even more embarrassed about the one time I temporarily blacked out during sex.” She blushed, and I laughed for the first time since I’d gotten the call from Daz earlier.
It scared the hell out of me, and it was difficult for me to understand or process, even years later. We just didn’t talk about it. I had it stored away with the uber sensitive shit, and that’s where it would stay. She barely mentioned it and I barely asked about it.
It was one of our many unspoken arrangements. Continue reading
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But she’s special, I know to ya’ll I come off as rough
But I’m the nicest to her, and I just want to concur
A relation, I want the cheesy dates at the movies
And stupid walks at the beach, and sharin’ straws in a cup
20.
“Baby, that was all fucking bad.” Kacie gripped the bag from Loi in her hand as she shuttered, following me over to the couch.
“Quickie fail is an understatement. Be lucky she didn’t knock on the windows and see if we were okay.” I leaned against the reflecting mirrors in the entertainment center and glanced at the marks on my neck as I sighed wistfully, sinking down to the floor.
“Those headlights scared the hell out of you. You, the motherfucker who’s pulled me into several bathrooms to have sex, got scared over headlights? Punk.” She teased as she popped the lid on her food and sat down next to me, swirling the lemon scented sauce around the orzo.
“Girl, after having paparazzi in my face all night, I don’t even know how I let you convince me into getting off like that.” I grabbed the extra fork and broke off a hunk of fish, savoring it as I swallowed it while Kacie wasn’t looking.
Maya’s name and picture popped up on my screen display as I started reclining on my back and unlacing my shoes, but I ignored it. There was nothing to be said there. Kacie glanced at it and picked it up as I sat my shoes against the couch, but I shook my head and she sat it down.
“Don’t answer that. I’ma give her a chance to explain herself to my answering machine, and if she doesn’t, she’s not going to like the result of that. She’s foul, flat out. She could have told me that she was dealing with Karrueche, instead of trying to persuade me to tone down my intentions of being a married man. What the fuck.”
“Did you tell her you got a restraining order on her?” Kacie started unraveling the bun in her head as I stabbed spears of her salmon and nodded.
Christine had been the one to update every other extended member of my team about the development when we were back in LA, and I had gotten a copy of the email myself, and I know for a fact that it was sent to both Maya’s business email, and personal account, so it wasn’t shit she didn’t have to even pretend to be unaware about.
“So she’s still going to be disrespectful, and a bitch, and bring her the fuck out here? What a rude fucking cunt.” She commented as she twisted her hair into a braid and I shrugged, not really caring anymore. I had other things to focus on, and whatever Maya decided to do with Tran was not my issue. Continue reading
Filed under: adds, completed, kacieverse, thinking of you | Tags: adds, chrihanna!friendship, completed, fluff, kacieverse, ot3: chris x kace x robyn, OT3: i never said things were perfect, OTP: the lady in my life, otp: you're all i need, summertime!chris, thinking of you, toy x 18
a/n: a bit lengthy. Enjoyyyy.
i don’t believe my hands are cleanly
can’t believe that you would
let me touch your heart
she didn’t believe me when i said that
i lost my faith
said you must believe in something
something something
you gotta believe in something
something something
18.
“We need to talk about this,” Maya’s hand grips my arm after I board the elevator again, with the sensation of Robyn’s lips still tingling my cheek after our departure.
“Morgan needs to be in on this too. Maybe we can do a quick business chat over dinner.”
I block Maya out, glancing only once at her new powerhouse attitude and seeing the black Greek female that tried to coax me a couple of times in the past to enroll in college and join her at her HBCU while I was promoting Exclusive.
“Maya, why are you stressing? Robyn is the main person that everyone will flip the fuck out and try to pin as scorned or hurt when this comes out, and she genuinely accepts us, so what’s your issue?” I fold my arms across my chest, annoyed as hell at her childish ways, but really, doing her job shouldn’t even be this hard.
I can’t get Robyn’s satisfied stare out of my head. It’s kind of like she was motivated like Kacie once was, urging me to do what’s obvious and get with the person who’d make me happy and do right by me, and Kace was definitely that person. Her acceptance and reassurance settled the fear I saw flicker in her eyes once I got down on my knee, but I’d told her lifetimes ago that me and Kace would most likely end up married.
I don’t even think I was totally serious then, even though I’d already proposed to her on a whim by that time. I was just really desperate for something stable when it seemed like we were hurtling towards the idea becoming damn near impossible thanks to our celebrity statuses. She was focusing on the future of her empire and I knew, somehow just knew we wouldn’t be in it for the long run at the time, maybe I was finally succumbing to all of the doubts that had been thrown at me more and more, and felt hopeless.
I was kind of jealous of all of the new families that seemed to interweave with the mixture of our crews, and I got really interested in trying out the family thing. Robyn wasn’t up for it. It didn’t seem to fit the image she was after and I swallowed it down, but I knew who would want to do it with me and wouldn’t even think twice about it.
We had an argument, small but it seemed to stick around for a while and just settled over us, while we entertained the thought that maybe we needed and wanted different things. I don’t know how I honestly found myself pouring all of these emotions into a talk with Kacie, one of those ‘I need you, can I come see you?’ type of trips that had become way too frequent and wasn’t helping anything, and I even told Robyn about it, she didn’t believe me then.
But now, years later, it’s a different story. After time had passed, situations changed, relationship dynamics shifted, and rebuilding was still a work in progress, I relied heavily on that sense of structure and finding a sense of settling. Robyn finally saw what was going on, and with only a tiny push, she grew to accept it.
I couldn’t say the same thing about Maya though, because she was pissed and I knew I’d probably never hear the end of it.
she writes -- you read. 