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a/n: whoo shit, exclusive era drabbles are set to end, for now! when i think of you 11-20 coming soon though, like, THURSDAY soon. đ I TOLD YA’LL THE KACIEVERSE WASN’T OVER!
set in april 08Ⲡ| drabble:  powerless | word count: 2,600+
In my pocket is a burning, flaming, ticket to Paris. Not only one, but two.
I mean, Iâve bought her a ticket. Itâs more of a confirmation type thing than an actual ticket, but still, itâs a ticket.
Iâm wondering how sheâll take it, but I have enough sense not to spring it on her now. There are other things to worry about. Like, how everything has fucking flipped, and I donâtâŚ
If things were complicated before, I knew this would make it worse. Was it possible to want someone like this and not want to hurt them, but not know how to make everything work out?
I mean, I want her. I have her, Iâve had her, and I know thatâs where all of the complications stem from. I didnât mean for our first time together to be like that, but it was better than her pressuring, which was borderline take me as you may, but if you donât want it, then fuck off, type of behavior.
When I realized how far going on auto-pilot had taken me, I wanted to take a few moments and stop, stop and count to ten, let my brain catch up, because I was certain that this couldnât be a good idea, what was about to happen, but it had to be, because it felt so inevitable, it felt like there was no turning backâit felt fucking real. Continue reading
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a/n: drabbles are almost over ;( ! here’s a lengthy read.
set in april 08′ | drabble: destructive | word count: 3,600+
âYouâve read it though, right? She says relationships make her insecure when itâs not a serious thing,â Barry places the magazine with Robynâs face on the cover over my eyes as I roll them and shake my head.
âShe says she has something just physical going on and thatâs about the only way things make sense.â Barry continues to read, and I exhale, sitting up and stopping.
âWhat the fuck is that supposed to mean?â I groan, partly because itâs hard to call this relationship purely physical when she helps calm me down with words and not just orgasms.
JD sucks his teeth, âYouâre just a fuck buddy to her, obviously.â
I go up another set in weight and groan. âMaybe sheâs just deflecting her feelings.â
Maybe. We did stuff, and her birthday and Jamaica was fucking amazing, but all the things that we did do, it just delayed the sex. I wouldnât be surprised if thatâs really was all she stuck around for: the sex. We know thatâs the backbone of this relationship, and I think that I should be worried about that.
I think I want something more out of her than just amazing sex and good chemistry, once we get underneath the layers of our mingling tempers, attitudes, and other priorities. I just donât know if Iâm fully ready to give up on everything else.
âSheâs shady.â Helen grumbles from across the room, on the treadmill. I shake my head.
âYeah she is, because when a female puts it like that, itâs kinda fucked up. Insecurities ainât shit to be played with,â Maya murmured as I stared back at my phone and then holstered myself back down to the weights.
âMaybe yaâll should just get seriousâŚâ She hints, and I suck my teeth again.
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set in jan’ 08 | drabble: angry | word count: 3,500+
âWeâre taking you to the airport and Iâll be waiting on you in Jamaica like we talked about, babeâŚâ Robyn smiled at me as I kept my hand locked in hers and moved towards the SUV.
A couple of days had passed since NYE â08, and the feelings I had about this year started off very interestingly. Well, for starters, after coming to a point in which being around each other felt no longer forced, I stopped denying my feelings about Robyn that seemed to grow after Vegas.
She caved totally too, or at least got off of the whole business related aspect of it all. She genuinely wanted to be with me, and I was still figuring out how to go about accepting it, knowing how her attitudes clashed with my temperance.
It wasnât a surprise, and it worked in our favor, like Tina had stated, but it was still being denied all over, and slowly ironed out. She was on tour with me for a few dates, and I liked our chemistry a lot to extend it off the stage.
It pleased Tina enough to give me space and pull her rein in on Maya, which was definitely necessary. I was over her the first time she stepped up on me, trying to pry into my personal relationships, which wasnât an aspect of her just doing her job as a pr agent, but whatever.
We were about as cordial as we could be, at least to each other anyway, and it felt like a small victory. We were together, everyone accepted it, and Kacie gave me space. We were taking this break seriously, with the exception of her hanging out during the UCP dates, but not on the same level as the first tour.
Baileyâs presence was strong in the tour dates she did roll through for, even though they parted at night. It was annoying as hell, but it made my distance from her worth it. It eased temptation too, but in between sets, I made sure to find her.
I had to make things comfortable for the dates she told me that she could make, so Robynâs hologram eased any drama during those few sets. I also had to make sure she would hang around long enough to spend time with me alone before we kept going.
Bailey didnât like that, and caught on quick, but he knew the arrangement, which apparently had gotten updated to âin an open relationship withâ on Facebook, according to Barryâs view of her profile.
In the end though, I dragged her through VIP, backstage, dressing rooms, put her in suites or on the side stage until she got aggravated by the treatment and I let her go. I donât think sheâd want to fuck with me now though.
Especially not after seeing the picture I uploaded to MySpace earlier.
ÂShe knows us well to know that my latest tattoo matches Robynâs, despite the fact that me and Kacie already share two matching tattoos ourselves, itâs still a fucking statement that makes me feel weird about flaunting.
Iâm all for new developments, a new relationship, but fuckâŚ
âŚI miss her, and Iâm not sure if my attempt to get us to spend time together will work, considering that this ârelationshipâ is the only thing she said would truly make her give me space.
Iâm a bit curious about how the next weeks will pan out, especially with Robyn taking another leave, this time to shoot a video, and Kacie deciding to venture out for the tour ending in a few days.
I guess Iâll have to just wait and see.
âIâm so tired of these lights, theyâre about to give me a migraineâŚâ Robyn complained as I kept my eyes out the window as the paparazzi caught up with us, targeting her especially seeing as how she wore my jacket.
We donât talk about us. We donât put a label on it because itâs been a shifting progression, and thereâs not really much to talk about. We fall head first into recording together and writing, even if none of it will ever see the light of day, I like the experience.
We just mesh, you know? I can escape from my celebrity problems with her by my side, even though everyone has something to say about it. We really complement each otherâs celebrity side.
I like it.
âPut your head on my shoulder.â I lowly murmur and she does, and rubs her eyes as we drive deeper into darker streets and away from the bright city lights.
My mind wanders with the quietness of the backseat, save for the occasional phone ringing here and there. Barryâs not around this time â Mercedes gave birth to a son, and I donât know when heâll find his way back out with me â so I donât really have anyone to really talk to.
Without even trying to, I wonder exactly how long she will be gone for this time. Iâm afraid of the answer, afraid to know that she will be gone for weeks, leaving me alone to deal with everything; leaving me alone with my thoughts.
I could make a phone call, but not with Robyn pressed up against me. I have enough respect between them for that not happening twice in a lifetime.
So I just sit, and watch the city roll by outside the window. Continue reading
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set in september â07 | drabble: special | word count: 3,100+
I wasnât going to drop from this natural high any time soon, and after being rushed off of the table and backstage, I knew something had changed. The performance was still getting deafening shrieks and screams in response of just how well executed the whole thing turned out to be, and with Robynâs appearance, it definitely changed the whole spectrum in terms of just seeing her up there.
I didnât think it would turn out like it did. My initial thoughts were focused purely on scandalous intentions, but actually having her up there, despite everything; it was different than anything I could ever imagine. Our chemistry solidified something between us for the first time, and everyone saw it in action.
It all worked out for the best, which scared me. The rush that I was getting while backstage had me on a trip that wasnât going to end, and to be honest, I didnât want it to. I was a bit afraid of what would come after this, give our history, but I was willing to take a chance, possiblyâŚ
It was all fresh and seriously appealing, and definitely something Iâd be willing to do again. I didnât think it would feel as good as it did, or work out like that at all. We meshed. We played off of each other well, and most importantly, everyone was all over it.
Maybe I doubted Tinaâs decisions, but her intentions could be badâŚI wasnât sure. Both possibilities make me sick inside, but theyâre better than the alternative.
âRobyn, câmere, oh my godâŚâ I wiped my face with a towel and she grabbed me, pressing her body against my chest.
I glance at her from the top of her head and down to her feet, falling for her shimmery thighs and long legs, and toying with the fedora on her head. Her eyes run the length of me, taking inventory, staring at my eyes and the smile that wonât get off of my face.
âYou didnât think itâd do that good, huh?â She questioned, briskly running her hands up and down my arms.
I shook my head no and looked at her, really looked at her, and saw just how excited she was. It was still obvious all over her face, that same post-performance rush, knocking me back a bit to see that she had the same expression as I did.
We got stopped for photos, caught in mid conversation, trying to accept this event that just changed everything between us. Then, she was being summoned, and I was catching my breath, but not before leaving her with one final request.
âCome up to my room later, alright?â She nodded, and I smiled.
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a/n: i know it’s been a whileeeeee. so, yeah. my bad. here’s an apology in the form of part 1 of the best fucking night, ever.
set in september â07 | drabble: confident | word count: 2,200+
ââNina, câmon, please?â Itâs like hours before weâre supposed to be prepared to get dressed and go through whatever we need to before walking the carpet.
Instead of being with Rashida and the rest of the stylists, Janina ran into Kacie after we left an event with Kanye West and his fiancĂŠe, but wonât tell me where she is now. I know JD and Maryss are with her, so maybe itâs a dance off Iâve been hearing about?
I caught her in the hallway, and asked her again the second Brandon held his hands up in order to walk away from us. He glanced at me only slightly, and I nodded my head at him. I wasnât going to do anything to her, I just needed an answer.
âTina can have my ass for this, Chris. I havenât seen her since yesterday though, have you questioned anyone else orâŚâ Her eyes ballooned as she followed me back into the suite, and passed up the throngs of people who eyed me, wondering what brought on my return.
âForget it. Iâll find her myself. Fuck, âNina, I justâŚI thought you would help me.â I frowned and just stopped talking altogether as I spotted Maryssâ head, and shortly after, caught JD dancing with some of Britneyâs dancers to the latest Justin and 50 Cent song.
I saw Ne-Yo coming my way and I inwardly cursed as I attempted to duck out of his path towards me. I wasnât in a bonding mood, nor was I in the mood for questions about me and Robyn at the moment. It was bad enough that the rumor spreading around about her performing had caught fire, and I felt pressured to snag her from her seat or whatever, but fuckâŚ
This was my first performance, and I had other things to worry about. Continue reading
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set in september â07 | drabble: surprise | word count: 2,200+
âSo, howâs school so far? Tell me something good, you like it?â
âItâs okay, butâŚ. Fuck, oh my fâ youâre gonna be so mad at me.â Nothing good could ever come from those words. I glance at her, face still in her phone, and Bluetooth in her ear, but I can tell sheâs not on the phone.
Sheâs addressing me, and now Iâm kinda scared. Weâve been in Vegas for all of five hours, and Iâve finally found her suite and I was more excited to be next to her than I thought⌠or at least I was, until I heard that bullshit.
âWhy would I be mad at you?â I furrow my brow at Kacie and she frowns before exiting out of the window on her phone. I could tell sheâs been holding something in for the longest and the floodgates are closed but Iâm sure soon, sheâll be pissed and crying buckets over something.
âStuff happened.â She tosses her bag open and doesnât look at me. Iâm not even supposed to be in here, but I had to find my way to the suite she was staying in with her dad and brothers.
âStuff like?â I think we have at least two hours before her Dad comes back, and she shrugs and squirms.
Sheâs uncomfortable. What the fuck happened? She hasnât even been gone for more than a month, and whatever it is, I donât feel like deciphering it. I watch her glance at me and pull me down next to her, and frown again.
âOkay, donât be mad butâŚâ She starts talking, then it ends in a spitfire blur of spanglish and I cluck my tongue and wedge it in my cheek. I catch Baileyâs name, and I groan.
I havenât really been too interested in her freshman year. Myspace has been replaced with Facebook, and I have to creep through Barryâs profile to see what sheâs not putting on Myspace anymore. I hate it, because heâs popped up a couple of times, but her updates have been sporadic and a lot of stuff gets kind of blocked out, possibly for my own good.
She probably knows I creep on her like that, but I hate it. I hate what I canât see. I hate that sheâs in a relationship instead of being complicated with him. Confusing should be a relationship status option.
But I know heâs there, and I hate that I donât think heâs going anywhere, because instead of transferring somewhere else, he did what I couldnât do. He stuck by her side and went with her without looking back or having any second thought about it.
I fucking hate him, still. She has a life that doesnât include me. I have a life that means nothing without her. Continue reading
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set in august â07 | drabble: impulsive | word count: 2,200+
âBecause I mean, Graduation is going to be fucking, uh-mazing.â Iâm packing and sheâs rocking back and forth, eyeing me warily but calm enough not to jump on me. I donât want her to. Itâs not going to make this better.
âYou only heard two songs, and youâre stanning?â I looked over my shoulder as she winked, and I watched her laugh and nod, tongue sticking out the corner of her mouth as she configured her new iPhone.
âSo um, are you⌠going to see her at the airport?â Her voice is curious, pensive. I nod. She glances back into her phone.
I try not to give into her false attempts at not being pressed about this. Sheâs been spiraling over and over again like a great cycle of isolation, because she knows after this shred of time together I will go spend hours with Robyn.
âProbably.â I stop packing, wondering how are we supposed to separate when she barely wants me to touch her anymore, and thatâs my fault in its entirety.
I glance up at the TV, and Umbrella is on again. Out of habit, I instantly look at Kacie. Thereâs always an air of tension when Robyn is involved now, and I still donât know how she got through that night in California to end up here, like this, insecure and irritated.
Itâs almost like sheâs under a spell. Her breath gets short and her chest gets tight. Sometimes, her inhaler comes out, but she doesnât look away. I donât get it, but I leave her alone. I donât want her snapping on me, for whatever reason.
âYou gon be alright?â I ask when the video is over, but sheâs still sitting there in this weird, disconcerted state. She once claimed us to be synchronized, but right now, I donât know what sheâs thinking.
She whispers a gentle lie, trying not to let it catch in her throat, and I can tell sheâs struggling to blow whateverâs gotten to her off.
âIâm good.â
This is it: the beginning of the end. I can feel the kick Iâm going to want to give my ass in the future, but I donât stop myself.
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set in july â07 | drabble: powerful | word count: 4,100+
âAre you ever going home?â Melissa cornered me as I shook my head no and watched Robyn slide back into the screen.
This not-so-subtle interrogation has been going on for at least ten minutes now.
It started earlier when I woke up with a text from Robyn, and she tells me to download some program onto my computerâStripe? Skype!âand after some instructions, despite how hopelessly bad I am with anything remotely new, she convinces me to video chat with her.
Except, for the majority of this, Iâve been questioned by Melissa, whoâs obviously out for Robynâs best interest, but I can tell she wants us to end up together, really soon.
âThis is my home for right now,â I admitted, folding myself up in the sheets I was wrapped up in even though I knew I was pushing it.
âI ainât tryna go nowhere soon.â I locked eyes with the face in the distance as Melissa rolled her eyes and Robyn shook her head at me.
I looked at her, her green eyes like emeralds staring back at me in such a way that if I hadnât been sitting I would have surely stumbled back. She was pissed, and it was attractive and I hated myself for admitting it.
I really like her eyes though; they reminded me of my momâs. I could get lost in them. I often did, and thatâs what the hell got me in trouble now, this I know. I glanced from her eyes to her mouth and back again, feeling my body heat up at the memory of those lips pressed against mine.
Fuck, I didnât want that. I didnât. She stopped staring and addressed me directly, turning the screen to face her. âSo weâre just not meant to be, huh?â
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a/n: tiny drabble block. gonna post up to 14, then the chapters will come back. needed a break. enjoyyyy.
set in june â07 | drabble: frisky| word count: 3,200+
âI bullshit you not, I canât name one time in which Iâve gotten online and this Christopher Robyn shit isnât being talked about,â Kacie turned around in her desk chair and threw a pen at me.
âYaâll motherfuckers make my job harder and this remix irritates the fuck out of me…â Kacie continued to complain after she idled her Mac and climbed back in her bed, barely missing stepping on me.
âDidnât somebody come up with a couple name for yaâll?â Barry asks from his position on the floor and I groan in remembrance.
âMaya calls us Chrihanna.â
âThat sounds loosely related to Chlamydia and Gonorrhea.â Barry commented as Kacie gave him a high five and I shrugged. I wasnât a fan of it either, but whatever. Continue reading
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a/n: this shit ended up being as long as an add, enjoy!
set in june ’07 | drabble: dominate | word count: 4,400+
âIf youâre a couple, why donât you just put it out there?â Maya wants to argue me down, and Iâm not really in the mood for it. I pinch the bridge of my nose and make a sound rifled with annoyance as I glare at her and continue putting on my shoes.
âWeâre not a couple. Weâre fucking, but⌠itâs complicated.â I wet my bottom lip with my tongue as I stand up tall and glance at myself in the reflection of the walls we past them.
Sheâs too fucking nosey, and it irks me to the core. No matter how much she wants to prove her worth, it wonât happen any time soon. She really doesnât want the distraction of the media having a field day with it and chasing her down for statements. Sheâs not ready.
âYouâre not ready to handle something like that anyway, Maya. Let it marinate.â I spend the entire time contemplating what the fuck to do with her as we leave the state of Virginia not too long after she clears her throat and make some comment about being too fucking complicated.
Robyn tackles me in LAX and the pictures are on MediaTakeOut within hours. I donât care. I abandon my crew, whoâs out here basically for the whole month, just to be with her. I get looks of disapproval for a brief second, but Iâm sure they fade once I hop into the chauffeured SUV with her and pull away to her apartment.
âThree days of just you and meâŚyou excited?â She murmurs in between kisses and I smile, appropriately feeling lifted as she tells me all the things she wants to do to past the time, and I feel powerless but I donât care.
For the moment, sheâs in control.